
… too numerous to list here.
I have made many mistakes. I will try to express it in words like this.
There were many times …
When I should have kept my mouth shut 🤫….
And I had spoken;
When I should have waited …
And I had left;
When I should have been patient …
And I had been haste;
When I should have been more caring & tender ….
But I had been tough;
When I should have faced my fear ….
But instead I had turned my back like a coward;
When I should have gone the extra mile …
But I stopped short;
When I should have been the first one to say “I am sorry “…
But allowed my anger to take over;
When I should have forgiven …
But hung on to resentment that ate me from within;
When I should have asked for help ….
But instead let my ego sabotage the achievement of my goals;
When I should have led …
And yet, cowardly followed;
When I should have ran ….
But instead walked;
When I should have told the truth…
But instead, lied;
When I should have offered assistance…
But instead wallowed in self-pity;
When I should have prayed to GOD …
But instead lacked faith and belief;
When I should have had the strength to say “NO” …
And agreed to gain now and lose in the long-term;
When I should have listened to my heart …
But allowed logical thinking to have full sway in decision making;
When I should have been active & engaged …
But instead was aloof and elsewhere but in the moment;
When I should have been more aware of my surroundings and those in my immediate sphere….
And instead was so self-absorbed ;
When at times, I should have been FOCUSED IN ATTENTION…
But instead included unnecessary NOISE;
When I should have reached out and touched someone …
And instead let selfish desires dominate;
When I should have found the lesson…
And yet focused on the problem or issue at hand;
When I should have rested & allowed recovery…
But instead ignored trusting my instincts and suffered as a consequence;
When I should have stopped …
But lacked the ability to delay gratification;
There were times when I should have allowed my curiosity to get the better of me;
But instead I blocked my ears …
When I should have cried …
But instead smiled and laughed;
When I should have said a few words …
But instead gave a thousand;
When I should have let my unusually strong 💪 stubborn-ness to dig deep;
But instead, succumbed to a feeling of weakness and gave up hope …
And ….
On … and … on … and … on ….
One thing is certain –
There’s still more mistakes to come
Life goes on
One thing that I have learned from making tonnes and tonnes of mistakes … of having experienced so many fuck ups …. Of failing multiple times is …
That I am more COMFORTABLE at tolerating the UNCOMFORTABLE FEELINGS of making a mistake … or fucking up … of failing … of failing …. Of failing. …..
I don’t see mistakes as mistakes anymore … but instead as OPPORTUNITIES to find solutions …. To stretch boundaries …. To DESIGN NEW RULES …. To CREATE something DIFFERENT …. To START ANEW.
I’m unsure of the future …
But I am not concerned;
I will rely on those closest to ME …
And I will share their burdens … as they share mine;
I WILL continue to ..
LIVE & LOVE 💕.. & LEARN … with the understanding that I am IMPERFECTLY PERFECT and …
Until my physical form on earth reaches its finite end and my spiritual self continues into INFINITY…
Because …
I BELIEVE that GOD is ALWAYS WITH ME …
And that makes me FEEL INVINCIBLE.. as I AM GOD … I AM INFINITE.
And YOU ARE TOO … if you believe.
What mistakes have you made?
What have you learned?
Be safe. Keep punching,
P.

You must be logged in to post a comment.